FINDING BEAUTY

I have been so stressed lately... I keep seeming to have no time to do anything I need to do. I have a list a mile long of things that I need and want to do. I'll get some extra time and then swoosh! its swiped right from under me.

My first and worst stress of them all: Obtaining a new job where I can "be me" because I don't want to be stuck working at some boring, thankless corporate job for the rest of my life because I am an artist and should be utilizing my talents. I want to have a job that I can look forward to going to every day... one that is closer to home, one that i can feel my worth, one where i don't have to sign into a special auxiliary code on my computer every time I have to go take a piss and then get reprimanded because it took longer than "operations" wanted. Second: One I can't speak about but it involves money and time and perfectionism. Third: I have so many little tasks to do around the house... little things to catch up on... making a website, catching up with all the online social sites, figuring out which pics we want to decorate the house with from our trips and actually going and getting them developed (after the long task of cropping and editing them) ... and the list goes on and on.

Anyway though this is a site about finding beauty in everything and so I must say that I realize that without this stress , I wouldn't be "living" for such is life and the beauty of this situation is that I have things to look forward to and goals to reach... *sigh* like checking off these things on my long list and the accomplishment and feeling of a burden being lifted off my back will be something wonderful.